I had a phone interview today with Seattle First Covenant Church. They sent me an email on Sunday saying that they had received approximately 15 applicants for the position and I was one of an undisclosed number selected for a phone interview. I interviewed with Carolyn, the associate pastor, and Sarah, a congregant and part of the search committee for almost 45 minutes. I think it went well. As always, it's so hard to gauge how I actually did in the interview. I was told the head of the search committee would be contacting me as to the next step, if there is one for me. If I am selected for the next step, it would be an in person interview.
The position would be 20 hours a week (15 middle/high school ministry, and 5 facilitating elementary ministry) and I'd need to find an alternate job as income supplement. Right now I'm leaning towards finding a nanny position. The youth group is approximately 15 students with very diverse racial and socioeconomic backgrounds. We'll see what the next step is.
I was talking with Becky on the phone yesterday, and I was able to verbalize that the idea of getting a job in a non-ministry context isn't what stresses me out. It's the idea of getting a job in the hospitality industry that sends me into fits of anxiety. What this tells me (because I am just smart and intuitive like that) is that I need to get out of my hotel job. I love the people, I like the job, but I think the position is symbolic for me of never being able to move on. It's not the actual job, but more of what it represents that I am wanting to separate from.